if men hate your skinny body
Here’s a reason to kill yourself
Seems to be the message
I was able to fight through the depths to kick and bray, stay a head above water.
that is all.
that is not quite enough
but it will do for today
In his 1917 essay “Mourning and Melancholia”, Freud drew a distinction between mourning, painful but an inevitable part of life, and “melancholia”, his term for pathological refusal of a mourner to “decathect” from the lost one.
Freud claimed that, in normal mourning, the ego was responsible for narcissistically detaching the libido from the lost one as a means of self-preservation, but that in “melancholia,” prior ambivalence towards the lost one prevents this from occurring.
Suicide, Freud hypothesized, could result in extreme cases, when unconscious feelings of conflict became directed against the mourner’s own ego.
NOW, BACK TO THE PSYCHIC COSTS OF BEING A CONSUMER AND CONSUMING MORE THAN THE REST OF THE WORLD COMBINED EVERY DAY:
Slate writer Steven Landsburg argues that “psychic costs shouldn’t count because they’re too easy to exaggerate. Anyone can claim to have suffered $1 million worth of emotional distress, but we have no way of knowing which claims are simply fabricated.”
I really have come to hate the writers of Slate, but that’s for a far more personal reason that the dude started a rumor that Trump had off-ed me because at the time they were dogging me for a misquote, I was dealing with a criminal landlord, a psycho stalker and a massive refugee flight from any semblance normal life after LAPD tortured me and executed a nasty, traumatizing false arrest that will affect me for the rest of my life.
so fuck you steven landsburg i can measure my emotional distress and it’s about
$ 225, 000 and counting. You think the woman who couldn’t even show up for a restitution hearing Haydee or Heidi Darleen fat fuck Mana lard can pay me back for all the pain and suffering and actually monetary loss and nerve damage, and chronic pain and oh the effects of the heat from Ponce and Gomez, LAPD officers put on trial for making false police reports all over town (they were the ones who tortured me), the ‘arresting officer’ just did stupid things like say, if she, the fat fuck Haydee, identifies you, you’re going to jail.
That is July 2016. I was going to see my mother.
This June I am supposed to help my mother, who now can’t care for herself, move from the place she loved and had planned to die quietly in peace.
My uncle died while I was in jail for a false arrest.
This would be psychic cost, I would say to that Slate fuck.
I have anger management tomorrow so the judge can say, “I can make this all go away” with their requisite god-complex and low IQ. You’d have to be dumb to spend your life upholding the lie of the law.
Have a nice day.
Present Hedonism is defined by Zimbardo’s time perspective theory and assessed by Zimbardo Time Perspective Inventory. Developmental data on Present Hedonism of males and females in the Czech population sample (N=2201) are also presented.
as opposed to past Hedonism
is much more restrained
could even be considered
Still there was nothing to indicate her time space continnuum could ever be reconciled with the “reality” around her.
The “manic depressive” is cursed with a bearish cycle of inspired mania when he invents foam rubber but forgets to register the patent that lasts three months followed by a depressive state, the first time a punishing fall from grace for that first spark of celestial insight, clarity of vision shared by the guru, shaman, kahuna, and “spiritual advisors,” alike.
The depression cycle lasts three times longer, no explanation, just accepted.
Those three times three sections to counteract the three times one seems completely unfair.
The book continues to argue that this descent into psychosis is both inevitable and immutable for those “unfortunate enough” to be in that percentile of “the population.”
Stop the anger the postcard, regaling the effects of location, said, in a not particularly unfamiliar voice. Not quite chiding, but not all that empathetic either. Like everyone you encounter in a day. They can’t quite encourage you as their generic genetic predisposition is to want to kill you.
You, on the other hand, profess to be interested in the teachings of Gandhi (while reading Malcolm X), teach peace & generally feel the pain of others. It’s the specific parts that trouble the mind. The specificity of the person’s experience all gets a bit messy after all.
And Hedonism Just walks out
In presentation mode
something other than the usual obfuscation
A minion in the making
obsidian sorted pieces to pick up
The grace of heart
The strong of conviction
The one who’s got your back
If you’re lucky and smart, your organization already has a strategy in place for dealing with nearly every crisis that could possibly occur. But even if that’s the case, you have to quickly determine what to do in this particular situation. And that’s made more difficult by the fact that your fight-or-flight response has been triggered, so every fiber of your being is telling you do something–anything–right now.
Not silence by God that never belonged to get anyway. Funny how the word Martian sounded so much Kinder than ‘natural’ child.
Zoom a zoom a spoon a tomb
Hell behind heaven below
I’ll be gone
before the end
Me, myself & A.i.
The bots via birds are Dai day sassy add add as the wine cross mark may Mary like Luke and John McCain has been a while to respond #with a fewer people #who are you doing to help you with the man who is the best way to get the best way to get the best way of doing business
Weeks fiasco #fiasco #artificeoffice
The Year is made of oxidation and Almost incomprehensible
Bit by bit you get torn away
Made into some other forgotten form
Salt water and sweet plum juice
Valid for the record
Value for the day
She Wed on a Saturday
divorced the following Sabbath
Reading “A few good men” with Zora Neale Hurston fables yet to make
When she fell
she fell hard
Take my place
You make me wanna die, right when I
When I wake up I’m afraid,
somebody else might take my place