This is how it ends

You just can’t do anything to make life better.
And there’s no point if this is only a purposeless struggle with no family to care for, no career, no prospects.

I can’t even adopt a dog, my existence is that tenuous.

I say this not for pity but to tell the world that the entertainment industry is more awful and evil than you can imagine so beware and do not let your kids go near it.

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A Greek city now in Turkey where preparing sheepskins as parchment was developed as a technique for making paper, which is now in essence wordpress, a virtual sheepskin, which evokes other things I realize and I don’t have a comment on that right now because I am trying to complete a disciplined assignment, to see if I can use Pergamum in a sentence but I am already done with that thought, that’s how fickle my brain has become lost in the virtual wilderness of thinking of what might have been.

Books & Films: Stuck in Love

Writers can be sexy. Just look at Hunter S. Thomson and Marquis de Sade.


No, this is not a film adapted from a book. But Stuck in Love (2012) is a story about writers. The tagline actually says that it’s A story of first loves and second chances. Hehe! But the main characters here are writers. Plus Raymond Carver and Stephen King!

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“Every life needs a rewrite.”

Stuck in Love is a 2012 American independent romantic comedy-drama film written and directed by Josh Boone. The film stars Greg Kinnear (The Last Song), Jennifer Connelly (Requiem for a Dream), Lily Collins (The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones), Logan Lerman (The Perks of Being a Wallflower), Nat Wolff (The Fault in Our Stars) and Liana Liberato (If I Stay). See what I did there? I just need to mention those books adapted to films. Haha!

There are three writers in this film. Meet the Borgens! There’s the father (Kinnear) who is a successful novelist…

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Character Study

This reminds me of how I would answer my colleagues when they would ask me how I was such a good social worker with an English major / History minor. I would say something like, you learn everything you need to know about people in all the great novels of the world and the history of mankind.

Waking Spirals


“It is quite possible—overwhelmingly probable, one might guess—that we will always learn more about human life and personality from novels than from scientific psychology.”
— Noam Chomsky


I have spent most of my life in the pages of books. I have befriended characters in the stories I’ve read and had conversations with them that have lasted well into the night. They have taught me so much. Psychological case histories are all well and good yet the diagnoses always follow the case studies and then tend towards the theoretical. In a well-written book or a good story (the two overlap but aren’t identical) different characters with various mindsets interact and through the interactions of their personalities there is incalculable value to be found. Fictional characters can be at least as real as the average person you meet (and far more than most online personas).Different branches of psychology work well…

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You should know this













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I am trying to give you a window

Into my soul

But we keep getting diverted

Because while I am channelling Bukowski one night late in downtown L.A., I set up pings that I don’t really know-how to undo.

And so I wrote something
My new book

And I can’t even find it

Which is funny


And I hate this feeling




I want to say
Started it



This time

I think I stumbled
Upon your word like a
T weedle see
And so

I will
Never tell





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